Wake Up Call

So my Sunday Blues continued through Monday and I was really beginning to feel bad. You know, one of those days when you are completely unsatisfied and you want something different but you don't know what.

I kept beating myself up through work for being grumpy and not being as kind to others as I could be.

Then in hot yoga tonight, I had a couple epiphanies, (leave it to a 100 degree room full of sweaty people to get you thinking):

1. I need to stop focusing on comparing myself to other people and start doing things for myself. When I finish something at work, instead of waiting for a pat on the back, I need to give myself a good pat on the back and be satisfied simply in a job well done.

2. All through yoga, right at the moments when I wanted to let go of a position, (which is a lot), I kept thinking about this article that I read about the amazing Ice Man.

This man traveled 100 miles north of the Arctic Circle to run a half-marathon in his bare feet! He is able to withstand cold conditions that would freeze other people's blood and kill them. The article says that scientists believe that this man is simply able to tap into parts of the brain that most people leave unused. This led me to thinking about what things I am capable of, that I instead dismiss as unreasonable or impossible, (certainly, getting through work without grimacing 100 times should be one of those feats).

3. Then after yoga, on the way home, for the first time, I heard this country song You're Going to Miss This by Trace Adkins and I felt like God was being pretty direct with me:

You're gonna' miss this
You're gonna' want this back
You're gonna' wish these days
Hadn't gone by so fast
These are some good times
So take a good look around
You may not know it now
But you're gonna' miss this

So alright, alright God, I know I am being a fussy brat. Just give me the strength to continue in my life until you make clear your will for me, and until then if I could borrow a little of your joy for the next couple days until I stop being crabby, that would help to!